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August 30th, 2009

07:49 am - Busy, Busy I haven't used this in over a year. Well, at least not for anything besides seeing what other people are up to and occasionally commenting on what they've said. I mostly use Twitter now. I have a Facebook, but I don't say much there. I'm also far more likely to update my journal at deviantART than the one here. Speaking of deviantART, I've been busy since I left work. I've started trying to get the hang of watercolors and have done far more artwork, both traditionally and digitally, than I have in a long time. It's been a productive time. I'm also learning how to make tissue paper flowers and have started finally making plans for all the different types of cloth I have. I hope to open an Etsy store soon to start selling prints of my artwork, my flowers and some plushies. Hopefully, that goes well. I don't have enough ready to start it yet, but as soon as I have enough things stocked up, that's definitely a goal. Still haven't found a job. Had more saved than I was aware of, so I'm still alright in that regard, but I definitely want income right now before I DO have to worry. On that note, everyone loses The Game, and I'm back to looking at the job postings. Current Location: Home Current Mood: blah

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June 7th, 2008

02:43 pm Hash Browns and Bacon Mmmmmm. After my crazy day yesterday, I was starving when I woke up, so Mama made me an awesome breakfast. Shame my sisters aren't here to share in the wonders of Mama's cooking. IT'S ALL MINE!!! HAHAHAHAHA!! MMmmmmmm!!! Current Mood: devious

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June 6th, 2008

09:30 pm - I Have a Very Important Announcement!!!! You all just lost the game!! And I <3 you all!! Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Euphoria (Firefly) - Delerium

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April 30th, 2008

01:46 am - the_trista Told Me to Post... ...so you all lose!! <3 And she can't even see it yet, so it'll be a nice surprise once she gets online again. :D And now, so there's a little more content, here's something someone posted to their deviantART journal: Go to Wikipedia.org and click on Random Entry. The title of the entry is your band name. Click Random Entry again. This is your band's album name. Click Random Entry 15 more times. These will be the titles for the songs on the album. L'vovskoye Medeu Dam Rabbani (disambiguation) Yosemite High School 277 (number) Binayak Acharya College Winona Site Calconiscellus Sarıkaya Red-tailed Hawk SS Stephen Hopkins European Cup 1966-67 Mari, Syria Martha High Samer (name) Manatee Springs State Park List of recognition for Kevin Smith WTF kind of crap is that? The guy who posted it at dA got MUCH better results than I did. My band and album names started out alright, but why did I get stuck with a bunch of schools, historical sites/parks and a billion places in Europe and Russia? Could I get some variety here, please? :\ Current Location: Home Current Mood: discontent Current Music: Surrender - Evanescence

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March 9th, 2008

03:41 pm - This Entertains Me trista: "I've never pretended to not be selfish..." trista: "I am the epitome of tact, decorum and diplomacy." HA!!! Current Mood: amused

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February 13th, 2008

11:54 pm - For Anyone Who Likes Engel by Rammstein... Check this out. Current Location: Home Current Mood: amused Current Music: Engel - Gregorian

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December 31st, 2007

04:56 pm - A New Year and a New Beginning Last year wasn't a complete horror or anything, but it could've been so much more than what it was. I'm not sad for 2007 to be ending. That's a rare feeling. I'm usually pretty nostalgic at the end of the year, but I'm ready for a clean slate more than I've ever been before. I don't regret the overall ending of this year, though. If it weren't for the way things had gone, I wouldn't be in the position I am now. I have a lot more focus and clarity than I've had in awhile as far as where I want to be and how to get there. If anything, I'm grateful for that, but I do wish it hadn't had such a high cost. Ah, well. It's all in the past now. So! Time to look toward the future! This year, I'm not sure I'll make resolutions the way most people see them. I do have goals, but a lot of the more specific ones start with "attempt to" or "start to." I'm going to pace myself and take my time to make my life how I want it. I don't intend to remake myself completely in a year or any crap like that. My overall, general goals: Start over fresh - I'm cleaning out and redoing my room to make it into a more productive and comfortable space. I've never liked it how it is, and since it seems like I'll be living with my parents for all eternity, I might as well be as comfortable as I can. Part of the rearranging also involves ditching the gigantic desk for the smaller, more easily accessible one and setting up a file server. Going to reformat EVERY system I own and begin again in that regard, too. Of course, I'll back up all my necessary files (artwork, music, WoW files, etc.), but it'll be a fresh install of Windows and everything will be much faster and more efficient, not to mention how much free space I'll have to work with. Learn more - This mostly covers my creative project ideas. I'm going to get back into programming and try to push myself more artistically. I'd also like to learn Japanese. I have two different learning methods, and I intend to use at least one of them to get somewhere. It'd be great to be able to watch raw anime or get raw manga imports and actually understand them. No horrible dubbed voices or strange translations/alterations. Focus more on myself - By far the most selfish goal I have, but at the same time, maybe the most important. I mean, really, everyone focuses pretty strongly on themselves. You sort of have to. No one can feel things or react to things FOR you, and anything that's happening at any given time is bound to seem like the most important thing because it's happening TO YOU. I definitely have that going on like anyone else does. But I worry too much about other people, and not so much in the usual way. I don't normally care overly much about what people think of me; only in the normal way any average person does. I DO tend to worry FOR other people, though. I care about how people feel and if they're going with out things and all that. And I can't do it anymore. Not like I have in the past. It always seems to work out that I'm the one who's left without in the end or I just end up burned for my troubles. I can't completely shut down something that's such a huge part of my personality, but I can definitely show more restraint and wariness. I have to. It'll be hard, but it's necessary. I can't end up in positions where I'm suffering because I've done something to help someone else anymore. It's not fair to me, and it's not fair that people think they can take advantage because of it, then end up let down when I have nothing more to give. Better to stop it before it starts. Be happy - This one might get some odd responses, but it's here for a reason. I'm tired of feeling restless and stuck. If my projects don't suck me up enough that I don't have time to dwell, I need better outlets during downtime. I need to find people who I relate to and enjoy being around, whether online or off. I need to find new things I enjoy doing or maybe go back to older things I hadn't had time for anymore but will now. I need to enjoy myself more. Be more assertive - I'd already started this one, but it's damn well going to continue. ESPECIALLY AT WORK. I do my job. I go above and beyond. That does not mean I have all the time in the world to do whatever anyone asks. It also doesn't mean I like doing extra work. I don't sit around waiting for someone to give me tasks to do. Also, I have parents. I live with them. I do not work with them. No one at my work should treat me like a child in the first place, let alone like THEIR child. I will do my job and do what I get paid for. Anything else is no one else's business, and they can kiss my ass and back the hell off. To start of my year at work, I will be living in the file room. Anyone who bothers me is going to hear about it. They might not like what will appear to be a sudden change in attitude, but I really couldn't care less. They don't have to like me. They just have to work with me and deal with me, as do I with them. The balance of power and aggression will shift drastically. I think this covers most of what I want. Not the specifics so much, but the overall attitudes and situations where I want to be. I want this year to be positive and meaningful. I want to feel like I've made progress. I want to be in a better situation, and I will. I hope everyone else enjoys the coming year and that things are happy and good for everyone! Welcome, 2008! And everyone loses The Game. :D Current Location: Home Current Mood: determined Current Music: Fields of Innocence - Evanescence

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December 20th, 2007

09:54 pm Better M&M Current Location: Home Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Ascencion of the Spirit - Evanescence

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December 5th, 2007

01:05 am Why does this have to be a week between paychecks?! I WANT THESE. If anyone wants to get them for me for Christmas, I'd be quite happy to accept them. And, for those who are horrified at the price like I was when I first saw it, you get all four boxes. It's not $40 for one variety. God, I want them. *cries* Current Mood: distressed

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November 9th, 2007

09:20 pm - Stolen from rebornangel16 Google Image Meme 1] Take your answer to each question and type it into Google Image Search! 2] Post one of the images from the first page of results! ( And here are the pictures! ) Some of these are entertaining. A couple were sort of expected. :P Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: Us Against the World - Play

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October 26th, 2007

12:38 am OMFG, that concert was beyond awesome. The two opening bands kicked major ass, and Evanescence was just perfect tonight. Julien-K was the first one on. I really liked them, and the vocalist entertained me. He might seem familiar to some. I'll let people look them up to see why. Gotta promote and all that. Sick Puppies are big on crowd interaction, and that, by FAR was the most fun I've ever had at a concert. I really loved it. They did a weird Green Day/Destiny's Child mashup that was just AWESOME. Green Day's music with Destiny's Child's lyrics. And then Evanescence. <3 They did two older songs, Missing and Understanding. Not so many people know them, but everyone loved them. She sounded amazing, as did the whole band. Overall, it was phenomenal. Could've done without some of the jackasses in the crowd, though. I have to admit that the 14 year old hitting on me was entertaining enough to make it somewhat more bearable... :P Overall, it was just fantastic, and I'm SO GLAD I got to go! <3 Goodnight, losers!! <3 <3 <3 Current Location: Home Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: The ringing in my left ear...

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October 22nd, 2007

12:38 am Just a quick update/reminder/whatever for any Evanescence fans in the area: Floor tickets ARE still available for $45.00. I don't know about seats, but I'll be on the floor, anyway. Standing only. It's this Thursday at the Veterans Memorial Arena in Jacksonville. I would not object to having someone to go with. :P Doors open at 7:30, I believe. Current Location: Home Current Mood: excited Current Music: No More "I Love You's" - Annie Lennox

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October 14th, 2007

03:15 am - Christmas List 2007 - Work in Progress This list is more intended for family than friends mostly due to the fact that I'm more likely to be able to reciprocate properly for family this year. Unless my medical benefits kick serious ass, I will be pretty short on funds for Christmas presents, and family comes first. Friends can expect gifts, but possibly not in the normal manner. I'm also totally not done MAKING my list, but it's only October. I figure knowing anything before December is better than average for me, so this should be alright. Also, to my sisters, should you choose to purchase anything on my list, please coordinate with Mama and Dad 'cause it'd suck for the presents to work out like our e-cards do... ;P I mean, as much as I love certain things, it doesn't make sense to have three sets of the same show or something. Anime: Ergo Proxy boxed set Neon Genesis Evangelion boxed set Rozen Maiden, Season 1 boxed set Kaleido Star, Season 2: New Wings - volumes 5 and 6 Other DVDs: House boxed sets, all available seasons. Music: Ergo Proxy soundtrack Any CDs by Monoral (especially the one with Kiri) that don't cost a billion dollars. Don't You Fake It by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Girly Things: (There shall be no mocking regarding any of the below items...) These shoes. I have to have them, size 5, in brown, for a costume. I NEEEEEED THEM. And thank you to rebornangel16 for posting them awhile back. That's it for now. I know the last two sections will have additions to them later when I remember more/find links. Current Location: Home Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: DDR Nonstop Mix 6 at an insane volume to drown out the blaring TV

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October 11th, 2007

12:51 am - To My Sisters Next time there's an event that requires the sending of E-Cards, we need to coordinate. The last two or three events, two of us sent the same card each time. This time, Dad got the same card from us all. Maybe we should just send one and sign it from all of us? Though I think Mama actually enjoys the suspense while she waits to see if we manage to send all different ones or not... Hmmm... I don't know Dad's reaction to it yet. I just can't believe we ALL managed to pick the same one this time. :\ Need a little help here!! I think I inhaled some wax.... *flop* *sighs* Current Mood: thoughtful

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October 6th, 2007

03:01 pm - Tagged Again... Every site I frequent, I keep getting tagged for these. I procrastinate, I'm lazy, and I'm nosy... I like reading everyone else's, but these things are like the Satan of journals to me. >:\ List ten things that make you happy. Then tag ten other people. I was tagged by trista 1. Not being tagged. But I will submit because I like the people who keep getting me. *cries and shakes her fist* CURSE YOU ALL!!! 2. Food, in general, in all forms... Chocolate, cake, ice cream, chicken, roast potatoes, bread... I like food. 3. Uninterrupted sleep while in blissful silence. 4. Cats!! 5. Socks. I love them. I like having socks to match everything, and I love ones with fun patterns. 6. Music. It can set a mood, emphasize one, change one... People joke about the whole "soundtrack of my life" thing, but I think it's sort of true. Just a bit more complex than that. 7. Books. When my reality sucks, it's nice to be in someone else's. Hell, even when things are fine, it's still fun to imagine a different kind of world. 8. Games. I get to live my OWN separate reality from the one that actually exists. 9. Being stupid with my sisters and my friends. And they'll know what I mean by "stupid," even if no one else does. :D 10. Art, both making it and viewing it. I think it's more of that someone else's reality thing, but also, on a more basic level, it's just nice to look at pretty things. ;P I didn't include the most obvious one, which would be my fiance 'cause I think it's sort of a given, but then I didn't want people to think that I'd forgotten him or something, so I'll just add that on right here. ;P And now I get to tag people. Christ, I don't think I even have 10 people to tag... Well, I had someone add me, I'm assuming recently, that I don't know anything about, so nelliripper, you get to be first. :P enigmaticmagus who probably won't do it and will probably be shocked I tagged him in the first place... i3ro just to see if he even still reads this... jwolf8 'cause I'm curious what the answers will be. :) nemmeran: You're too quiet! orcrist: You're too quiet, too!! vovinoiad: Do you even still use that account? bakka_bob: Do you even still use livejournal, and happy belated birthday! <3 And the last two because I feel sort of cut off since the Dark Toast stuff, and I don't know how else to reach out or if it would be welcomed or not if I did: blasphemerius and rebornangel16. I do has 10 friends! And that was surprisingly painless... Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: DDR Nonstop Mix 6

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September 23rd, 2007

06:28 pm - Operation Get The Kitty Operation: Get the Kitty has been a success!! The kitten is now at i3ro's house. It turns out, he does have teh harbls, so he is, indeed a boy. He's also gorgeous and sweet and purrs a lot. :D I can't wait until he's been to the vet so I can have him out with me. He's stuck in a big dog kennel/cagey thing. :( But he seems pretty happy, considering! :D I'm just home grabbing clothes and things for my stay over there to help him adjust. :) I'll update more as things happen. Current Location: Home Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: The blaring television in the living room

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September 11th, 2007

11:40 am - Evanescence Update This showed up on ticketmaster's site in the last 6 hours or so: Thu, 10/25/07 07:30 PM Jacksonville Veterans Memorial ArenaJacksonville, FL Evanescence presale begins: Wed, 09/12/07 10:00 AM A quick note about the pre-sale, though... It's for the EvClub members only. Or you can sign up for membership while purchasing the tickets during the pre-sale time. That's the 12th through 14th. I'm assuming that means that the regular ticket sales begin on the 15th. Right now, ticketmaster is showing the price range as $36.50 to $45.00. Not sure if that will stay the same once the normal sale starts. Also, I'm having my wisdom teeth out the next day. How fantastically happy is that? They said it works out well, though because it'll help me avoid some of the pre-op terror the night before. :P Current Location: My Room Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Blessed SILENCE

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02:03 am - Evanescence is Coming to Jacksonville! Finally. It's about freaking time another band I'd actually want to see in concert got around to coming here. The last concert I saw in this part of Florida was Garbage in 1999 or early 2000. I'm excited! Tickets aren't on sale yet, but ticketmaster should get them up any day. It'll be October 25 at the Veterans' Memorial Arena downtown. Anyone whose interested needs to watch ticketmaster and get tickets as soon as you can. :) I've already taken that day (a Thursday) and the next off. Current Location: My Room Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: My cat yowling at the end of the hallway

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September 10th, 2007

03:20 am - Random Thoughts... I've been pretty much stuffed up in my room for the last couple of weeks for various reasons, and it's given me a lot of time to think about things and to become so extremely bored that staring at the wall has become fun. To try to find something, ANYTHING really, to do, I've been trolling around on youtube, deviantart and a few other sites. I'm trying to sort through some of the trends I've noticed... One of the things I'm having the hardest time grasping is this "vlogging" thing... At first, I decided that it seems like the ultimate means of attention whoring. Now that I think about it, though, is it so different from having a livejournal? It's sort of the same, only more in your face. But then again, while I know any posts of mine that are public can be viewed by anyone who happens to come across this journal, it's still mostly just tossing my thoughts out to get them out for myself. With a vlog, it seems like it's really intended specifically for others to view. So is it just taking the whole online journal to the next level, or is it being a complete attention whore? I can't decide... The next thing I'm trying to sort through is why the Japanese culture is so fascinating to me. I can count to 99 in Japanese now. I don't know what 100 is, but once I find out, I should be able to count up to 999. Maybe past, depending on if it follows the same pattern the teens to 20s to 30s, etc. did. I've also discovered what Para Para is. That's fascinating to me. The weird machine in the arcade that used to be in the mall reminded me of DDR only for the hands... I never played because I didn't understand how it worked, and I didn't want to look stupid. Not that DDR in an arcade isn't likely to make you look like an ass already, but whatever. I already knew how to play DDR. :P Para Para, though, is actually a real dance craze that the Para Para Paradise games were meant to teach AFTER the dances were established. There's some lower body movement, but the main focus is on the upper body. It looks fun, but the videos I've come across so far are too fast. :\ I need slowed down versions of some of the J-Pop and other songs with moves so I can learn them. Help me get back in shape faster. I'm also starting to really become fascinated by the idea of cosplay, though if I'm going to do it, I'm going to do it well. No cheap fabrics and quickly thrown together outfits for me... And why don't we have cool things like professional cosplayers here outside of the whole Disney character thing? The idea of being PAID to walk around dressed as Suiseiseki or Asuka is too cool for words. Which also reminds me! They're doing a live action Neon Genesis Evangelion movie.... No cast yet, so no details there, but the company that did a lot of the computer generated effects for the Lord of the Rings movies is working on it. Should be good. The first of the new animated movies should've come out in Japan about a week ago, too. Need to look that up and find out how it was. And when we'll get it here. What else...? I know there was more random youtube WTF-ness.... I can't think of it now, though. I should go to bed soon, anyway. Goodnight, all you losers!! <3 <3 Current Location: Home Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Dancin' and Dreamin' - Hinoi Team

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September 3rd, 2007

07:36 pm - I Can Has Weight Loss!! I've lost 6 pounds in about as many weeks! :D I'd been so proud of the 2 pound loss that lasted about three weeks, and I'd lost another 2 by the 4th week mark. I weighed again tonight and had lost yet another 2! I just hope that it isn't that I'm losing muscle mass instead of fat. I've been trying to incorporate more salad into my diet, less fast food, and TRYING to go through a quart or more of SmartWater a week. I've had comments about looking like I might have dropped a few pounds, though, so SOMETHING I'm doing is right! :D I'm so excited and happy! And now, I'm a LOSER in more ways than one! :D Current Location: Home Current Mood: excited Current Music: The crickets and cicadas outside

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